You unzipped my body and took my heart out,
Oh so slowly, You wrapped your beautiful yet manly hands around it,
The pain, the agony of the torturous moment took awhile till you had a tight grip,
Yet I am ashamed to say that it was intoxicating pleasurable...
Your presence was definitely felt;
Inch by inch...
Each heartbeat skipped for you
You conquered my heart
You are the king of my heart....

Never knew I could be fooled,
Not once, but twice...

It was just a dream that wasn't meant to be dreamt,
Promises that now wished to be untold...
Alas, you left my wounded heart, abandoned
My heartless body aching...

The obstinate heart of mine,
Still lusts for your touch,
Buoyed with hopes to relive the untold love story...





XOXO
Christie


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I'm helpless when he smiles...
It's true...
I'm like a child now..
How did I fall in love with you...
Trouble is....
You are everything but mine..
Will you break my heart,
Cause I don't want it that way..
Quit playing games with my heart....
Treat me right is all I need from you...
Nowhere to go, but just taking one step at a time...

XOXO
Christie


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It's almost 1am now,
and I have to be up by 6am tomorrow to be on time for work.

I'm tired, I'm sleepy...
but I just can't seem to get my butt of the chair and head to bed...
just so tired thinking about nothing, but i just can't stop doing it.. sigh
What has gotten into me again....

Fine, Whatever, I'll force my lazy ass to get to my bed..

Good night....


XOXO
Christie


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I've been thinking recently,
well mostly about my accommodation, whether traveling to work from klang every single day is less torturing or staying at the place I've rented is much more torturing...

Well just give some head ups about my situation,
I'm currently having my industrial placement in KL, and it takes almost 2 hours of journey from the nearest station near my place to my work place.
It's not that torturing if you never try the so call great KTM...
It ruin my life!! This bloody Ktm is a total crap!
First thing first, it frequency is so low.. 20 minutes per train..
secondly, it always schedule for delays and cancellation!!
And I had to wait for an hour for that sardine pack train due to the cancellation of the earlier scheduled train.
thirdly, it sucks, it so slow!!!! and it stops so often as in stop before it reaches the station...
and the list goes on and on and on...

however, now my dad, fetches me to a certain train station which is a different train line which is soooo much better, and then only I interchange at KL sentral. It takes around 45 minutes or so plus all those walking to point A to point B till I reach my work place..

Now.. I'm kinda torn between the two whether I should convice my dad to let me stay at the apartment that I've rent or just stay home and trouble him at times...

If I choose to stay home, I will have no life for 4 months..
Any sorts of gathering with or without alcohol will be quite difficult to attend cause my dad is picking me up. NO MORE CLUBBING!!! sob.. it's been sooo loong.... T^T

If I choose to convince my dad to let me stay out,
NO AIR COND!!!! No washing machine, NO dad fetching me... No CARTOON NETWORK OR NICKELODEON!!

so it's a tough choice.. sigh..
which will it be....
To be or not to be.. ahh!!


XOXO
Christie


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It's been long since I've updated my blog...
Actually, it had been long since I've done anything that I like anymore...
I lost my ways to find all those papers and pens to put my words and give them life by creating something meaningful to me, maybe like writing poems, or perhaps stories...
The interest in photography, cooking, listening to my favorite genre of music seems to be at a mist of finding their way back into my life...


All I could say is that I was being somebody who I'm not,
I was trying to be a better person,
A person that everybody would love,
A person that needed no one to be worried of,
However it ended up in a different way that I ever hoped for,
I've realize the world can be pretty yet ugly at the same time,
There are people who genuinely loves me,
And there are people who are just liars and being purely judgmental about others,

I've opened my eyes,
There are so many things in life that is yet to discover,
so much more than what I'm facing now,
There's never an ending,
It is always a beginning of a new chapter of life,
That worth every second to live,laugh,learn and love,
I'm going to give the best of me,
And get the best out of every moment of life!
So here goes the new chapter of my life,
A prologue of the life of Christie's adventures.


Behold citizens of the Earth! Christie is back and I will rock the world!!







XOXO
Christie


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hey ya'll!!




i'm back from training.. this time it's for real..
well... definitely noticed that I have not been updating for like the past 4 months...
but it's all gonna change now!!! *i hope *...
well.. so for a fresh new start, i'm changing a new blogskin..
so.. yeah..


enjoy ur days... =)






XOXO
Christie


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XOXO
Christie


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Maybe...

Maybe,
I used to think I know you,
I used to think you were my friend...
I used to think I was your friend...

But sadly,
Things changed,
Time passes,
You're not you anymore...

I've always been myself...
Maybe,
You were never yourself?
Or maybe I've never noticed?
Or you have been lying to me?
Maybe even to yourself?

Anger, is what I'm feeling,
It hurts me seeing you this way,
It hurts me seeing me this way,
It hurts me seeing us this way,
But it hurts me the most,
When you don't see me hurting because of us...
It hurts when you are not you anymore,
It hurts when you could care less about this...

Maybe,
You felt the changes in us,
The changes in you...
Steps taken to understand each other was taken,
But never was it printed in your heart,
Steps to listen to one another was taken,
But was blown away by the wind before they could reach to you..
And nothing is on the right track anymore..

You ignore me when I speak,
You ignore me when I listen,
You ignore me when I care,
You pretend to be someone else that I not know,
You pretend to be someone else that you're not,
And the fact that you're getting what you want by pretending,
Is what hurts me the most...
The fact that you're being coy, fake, the person I never know...
And not seeing the consequences of your actions that are affecting us...

You weren't the person now when I first know you,
Maybe you're seeking for attention,
Thinking back about the things you said about attention seeker,
About how you hate them,
And now seeing you changing into one,
Really annoys me and shows me how ironic life can be...

Seeing you everyday,
Makes me feel disgust,
Disgusted about you,
Disgusted about me,
Disgusted about us...
I don't feel the closeness between us anymore,
And I think I'm tired of trying to mend the relationship,
The relationship that seems to be not worthy enough for you,
The relationship that seems you don't mind not having...

I'm tired of trying,
I'm tired of trying and gets shut off whenever I try,
I'm tired to be the only one getting hurt,
I'm tired of your careless attitude...
Maybe it's time for me to let go,
Let go of this relationship we ever had,
Maybe, you should be the one trying...
Maybe, we should just forget about all this...
Forget about the things we had,
And not look at each other the way we used to anymore...

I hate the fact where you take me lightly,
I hate the fact where you're not serious about this,
I hate the fact where you don't try,
I hate the fact where you don't see me trying,
I hate the fact where I don't see you hurting like how I do,
Because of the relationship we have now...

Maybe,
I thought to myself...
Just maybe, it's better for me to not know you in my life,
It's better for you to walk out from my life,
Or maybe I should walk away,
So the shattering of my heart will stop...
And someday, someway, I'll learn to forget...

Maybe...
Just maybe...

XOXO
Christie


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Christie


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Christie


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Christie


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Thanks Bris! =) (*note the sarcasm)

XOXO
Christie


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Christie


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oooh..
can't wait to cook it again!

ok..
that's it..

buhbye!!

XOXO
Christie


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*do I look hot!?? I KNOW I DO!! *conceited*

ok.. so that's all...
I think I'm gonna head to bed after this...
Tata..

Good night...　　お休みなさい。。。

XOXO
Christie


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